should i go for another shot? or forget forever?

Emo mode nanaman ba? hindi naman, medyo lang, kung tutuusin dapat di ko na muna iniisip yung mga ganitong bagay hindi at mas maraming pang importanteng bagay na dapat pag tuunan ng pansin pero since ikaw na mahilig sa showbiz na readers ko alam kong eto ang hanap mo hehehe.. actually tama ang nasa isip mo PUSOng usapan nanaman ito, but di na  about sakanya... wala na ako magagawa on her at isa pa bumaba na lalo ang pagtingin ko sknya sa mga natuklasan ko pa lalo nitong mga nakaraang linggo, pero to be honest malungkot ako para sakanya, nakarma kasi cguro sya sa mga ginawa nya sa akin kaya ganun naging kabilis ang bawi sakanya, sana lang malagpasan nya at kayanin nya on her young age and i hope na hindi ko kargo nga talaga kung ano man yung bitbit nya sa mga panahong ito, pero like what i said hindi ito about sakanya...

Naalala ko sinabi ko sa isa kong friend na babae na di ako mag dadalawang mag isip na magparamdam muli sakanya na kahit naka 2 strikes na ako...sa totoo lang di naman ako uulit at uulit ng ganito kung hindi ko naman tlga sya mahal eh, ewan ko ba bat naging ganito ako, may side na okay yung di ko bsta pag sukosa isang bagay dahil madami ako napatunayan sa EX ko na hindi ako bsta dapat sumuko dahil because of her masaya ako na ipinaglaban ko sya til the end, although meron naman din na di magandang side yung di ko pag suko, nagkakaroon ng fade sa kulay naman ng aming friendship everytime na mag oopen ako about sakanya, actually nag sabi na ako noon na di ko na ioopen ulit yung nararamdaman ko sknya dahil nagkakaproblema lang sa friendship namin, ako lang tlga cguro ang may problema naiintindihan ng isip ko na ayaw nya sa akin pero ang puso ko ang di makaunawa nito sa totoo lang, so the question is should i got for another shot dahil gusto ng puso ko oh mas isipin ko ang friendship namin at mas mangibabaw dapat ang isip kesa sa puso... Kung tutuusin sinasabi ng iba madami dyan madali kang makakakuha ng mashigit at gusto mo, sa totoo lang totoo naman kaso yung katangian ng gusto mo ang hahanapin mo yun ang mahirap hanapin sa iba... Ganito yung inisip ko last year din before mag xmas din na kapag hinayaan ko sya at kalimutan nalang ay baka pag sisihan ko naman habang buhay so ipinaglaban ko sya at wala akong pinagsisisihan kahit nag kahiwalay man kami ngaun? oo nga pala may nag tanong isa sa mga readers ko kung mahal ko pa ba? kung nung mga nakaraang 2 buwan ang isasagot ko is oo pero kung ngaun ang masasabi ko mahal pero di na ganun mahal cguro nlang bilang kaibigan din at dun sa kung may balikan ang masasabi ko is ayoko na, nakakadalang masaktan, umiyak at mawalan ng tiwala sa ibang tao lalo na kung sa taong mahal mo..

so here's the scenario if i go for another shot, if mag paramdam ako at still the same ganun pa din strike 3 means out na at alam mo na cguro kung anong pedeng mangyari na sa mga susunod...cguro kung ano lang tlga muna yung mga mangyayari sa susunod ng 2 buwan or so on...mahal ko tlga sya pero ayaw ko magkaroon pa kami ng conflict dahil sa tutuusin ako lang din ang nasasaktan kapag napapadalas yung pag tatampuhan at pagkakailangan namin... cguro ako na din ang may mali tlga dapat cguro yung personality ko na si chow dapat cguro patayin ko na at bumalik nalang ako sa marco na seryoso at boring..haaay kaw na bahala umintindi sa kwento ko.... Merry Xmas po!

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Bestman? Possible or Impossible?

Possible or Impossible? Hindi ito palabas ni Tom Cruise!

Two of my bestfriends ay married na, and both sila kinuha nila akong Bestman, do i deserve an award as BESTMAN of The Year? pero di naman yun ang sasabihin ko, kagabi before i go to bed iniisip ko bakit nagkaganun kaming tatlo, mga bata pa kami magkakasama na kami almost 14 years na kami magkakasama at yung mga bagay na yun ang isa sa mga pinaka importanteng part ng aming buhay pero di kami magkakasamang tatlo. Well eh to yung nilaan ni god na mangyari.

Question: 1. Magkakaayos pa kaya sila? 2. Magagawa ko pa ng paraan pa?
Answer: 1. Hindi ko alam, panahon nalang ang makakapag sabi kahit parang nakikipag ayos na yung isa para kalimutan na yung nangyari in the past is matigas yung isa on the other hand, di mo naman masisisi yung isa din kung bakit ganun din sya mahirap tlga pag nagkalamat yung pagkakaibigan at pag nawala yung trust, kahit ako sa sarili ko wala sa akin yung feelings mas lamang sa akin yung trust ko sa isang tao dahil mahirap pag iyon ang nawala...

2. Kung tutuusin ako dapat ang isa sa gumawa ng paraan para sila mag kaayos, pero sabi ko nga parang IMPOSSIBLE eh, it looks like gusto mong maging mag bestfriend ang TORO at MATADOR,  or asking the snake not to eat the rats, or wish teh crocodile not to eat the flesh of meat haaaay ganun yun puro ba kahayupan? hehehe eto nlang cguro na im waiting na dumating ang eroplano sa pier... Tanong ko tuloy sa sarili ko, paano pag ako na ang ikakasal, sino sa kanila ang bestman ko? pede bang both? kung pede parehas kaya silang pupunta kung alam nilang magkikita sila sa kasal ko? Pero dapat tanungin ko ang sarili ko kung may papakasalan ba ako? hehehe meron cguro pero hindi ngaun, bukas or next year, walang nakaka alam but sana pag dumating yung araw na yun is sana okay na silang dalawa, hindi man maibalik yung dating kami bsta andun lang silang dalawa masaya na ako nun... So yung ang challenge sa akin...maghanap ng pakakasalan? hahaha ang pagbatiin sila... Bagamat may iniwan sakin salita kahapon si isang friend, to be honest medyo masakit yung sinabi nya kahit hindi yun para sa akin kasi naramdaman ko na hindi lang tlga sya parang malabo na kung hindi tlga parang bulag na..haaay sana lang gawan nlang ni god ng paraan kahit hindi sa way ko or sa ibang tao...bsta magkaayos lang...

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·  basis. While at work ignore the elevators and do some cardio exercises by using the stairs.

·  Do not take cream with your coffee. Many people follow a diet to lose weight but they drink their coffee sweet with milk and cream. This literally can destroy your efforts especially when you drink 5-6 coffee drinks per day. Instead try to get used to black coffee with no sugar. Once you get into the habit of drinking black coffee you will also realize that it tastes better.

·  Fiber is your weight loss friend. Fiber is very important in your weight loss diet for many reasons. First it can keep you full for longer periods, second it cleans your insides and last but not least it can boost your metabolism which means faster weight loss.

·  Water is vital for weight loss success. Do not underestimate the power of water in losing weight. Water has 0 calories, it can give you a feeling of fullness thus you will eat less, it helps you flush toxins from your skin and body and keeps your body organs hydrated and in good condition. 6-8 glasses of water per day are enough for the average person. Start and end your day with a glass of fresh cold water and do not forget that our body is 75% water and we need to continuously re-fill our reserves.

·  Hot and spicy foods increase your metabolism. It is a proven fact that hot and spicy foods can increase your metabolism. This is because they accelerate the body’s thermal rate thus giving a boost to the fat burning process.

·  Cold temperatures are better than warm. The body needs to burn more energy when in cold temperatures to keep the body warm and at normal temperature levels. This has a positive impact in the overall fat burning process. It may not be the most efficient way to lose weight but it is a factor that helps.

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·  Brush your teeth after dinner. A lot of people have the tendency to snack when watching TV at night. This is not a good choice because the calories consumed are more difficult to burn since there is minimum body activity at night. A nice trick is to brush your teeth after dinner so that you lose the desire for snacks. You can also make it a habit to drink a glass of water after dinner to keep your stomach full.

·  Professionals are there to help you. If you are trying to lose weight for some time but you cannot get the results you want maybe it’s time to get some professional help. Personal trainers, dietitians, life coaches are there to help you go through the process and by-pass your obstacles. You may have to pay some money for their services but it’s a life investment that worth’s every penny.

·  Learn how to exercise correctly. Sometimes it is not enough to exercise but it is important to learn how to perform the exercises correctly. There are thousands of on-line videos demonstrating the proper way to do exercising so get into the habit of exercising smart and not hard.

·  Create a plan and stick to it. Having a weight loss plan is essential. You need to have a vision on what you want to achieve and express this vision into a detail plan with milestones and specific targets. Try to make your plan as specific as possible. Clearly identify how many pounds you want to lose and when. For example you can state that ‘my target is to lose 10 pounds’ by the end of the year.

·  Protein is vital for a healthy body. You need to take-in protein with every meal because protein can help your muscles growth and can keep your stomach full for longer periods. Great sources of protein are lean meat, low fat yogurt, eggs, nuts and peanut butter.

·  Dine out with care. Dining out frequently can have a negative impact on your weight loss efforts. When eating out you usually eat more and you have no control on how the food is prepared. If you really have to eat out for business or leisure then prefer Chinese cuisine or Mediterranean cuisine that promotes healthy eating.

·  There are no miracles in weight loss. Stay away from products that promise fast weight loss results with minimum effort. Miracles do not happen when it comes to losing weight. If a product, diet or pill is too good to be true then it is probably a fake. There is only one way to lose weight and this is through a balanced diet and regular exercise.

·  Do not use cooking oil or butter for fried foods. Fried foods should be eliminated from your diet but in the case that you have to eat fried food then make sure that you use a cooking spray for the pan instead of a tablespoon of butter or margarine. This simple change can save you up to 100 calories per normal serving.

·  Positive thinking = weight loss. You will not be able to lose weight if you do not keep a positive attitude. Change your mindset and approach weight loss as a major step for a better and healthier life. Visualize your success and do not let obstacles and problems block your happiness. Positive thinking is the first and most important step in archiving your goals. Stay away from negative influences (including people in your environment that do not share the same views) and be optimistic. There is absolutely no reason that you cannot meet your targets.

·  Always read the food labels. The food labels are not there to fill up the space on food packaging but they contain useful information about the item. Among other things by reading the food label you can see the number of calories, fats and sugar. These figures are important for people who want to lose weight because they can be used as a guide on what foods to eat and what foods to avoid.

·  Find your weight loss buddy. Recent research shows that people who have a ‘weight loss buddy’ have more chances in losing weight than people who try alone. A weight loss buddy is anyone that shares the same goals with you as far as weight loss is concerned. You can remind each other of your targets and get motivation when problems arise.

·  Watch your cholesterol. Taking care of your cholesterol levels is not only good for your health but is also important for your efforts to lose weight. As a rule of thumb limit the consumption of full fat foods like liver, organ meats and full fat dairy products. Instead prefer lean meat (for example lean turkey) and fish.

·  Eat slowly and stop when you are full. It takes about 20 minutes for the brain to receive the signal from the stomach that you are full. If you eat fast the message does not reach the brain and you will end up eating more food quantities than you really need. What you should do instead is eat slowly and chew your food very well and stop eating when you are feeling that you are no longer hungry.

·  Food advertisements are made to sell. Do not get fooled from food advertisements. These types of ads have only one purpose and this is to sell more products. Do not believe anything they say because they are not liable to any organization. Before buying a food item you saw in TV make sure that you check the food label for the number of calories and fat percentage.

·  Fruits everywhere. You should know by now that fruits and vegetables are great for your diet. You can cleverly keep a ball of fresh fruits and vegetables on your kitchen table or fridge so that they are easily accessible by all family members. To make your basket more attractive to kids put fruits with bright colors such as strawberries, apples, raspberries and bananas.

·  Follow a balanced diet. There is only one best diet for weight loss and this is the balanced diet. A balanced diet does not completely exclude any food type from your meals but promotes the consumption of carbohydrates, protein and fats. All these nutrients are essential for a healthy body.  The proper percentage is: 35% protein, 45% carbs and 20% fats. Any diet that substantially changes these figures is unhealthy and should only be followed after the guidance of a certified doctor or professional dietitian.

·  Stay away from buffet. Take this advice literally and try to avoid being near a buffet either when you are in a party or a restaurant. Being near a huge selection of nice looking but fatty foods will certainly do no good for your weight loss efforts. Better keep a distance and eat your normal food portions than being carried away by the buffet temptation.

·  Do not compare food serving sizes. When in a party or a gathering do not compare what you eat with what other people eat. Each individual has different calorie needs depending on the age, sex and activity levels so what is suitable for one person may be too much for another. Stay within your limits and focus on your daily calorie targets.

·  Take salad as a starter. One of the main reasons why you should have a starter before your main meals is to control your hunger so that you will feel satisfied sooner.  A fresh green salad is a perfect choice because the fiber from vegetables will reduce your appetite. This kind of salad is very easy to prepare even at home. What you need to ensure is that you do not take any dressing which will add a substantial amount of calories to your salad.

·  Eat only on the dinner table. Many families tend to eat snacks while watching TV or while in the car going on a long trip. Over abusing this may negatively impact your efforts to lose weight and in addition it is a bad habit for your kids. Set some rules that food is only served on the kitchen table and at specified times and set the good example for your kids and other family members.

·  Physical activity. By being physically active throughout the day you can boost your metabolism and at the same time you burn a few extra calories so you will lose weight faster.

·  Eat at specified intervals. Do not eat only when you are hungry but try to eat at set intervals throughout the day and if possible at the same time. By following this pattern you will avoid overeating during your main meals and also your body will be in a better position to digest the food and burn the extra calories.

·  Set a minimum time for walking per day. Regardless of what diet or exercise routine you are following you should set a minimum time for walking per day. This can be 30 minutes split into 3 10 minute sessions, one in the morning, one in the afternoon and one late at night right after dinner.

·  Prefer to eat fresh fruits than drinking fresh juices. If you can choose between eating a fresh fruit and drinking a fresh juice then go for the first. Eating a fruit will give you more vitamins and minerals and you get to lose a few calories from chewing. One the other hand just drinking the juice will only add calories to your diet and less vitamins and minerals.

·  Weight lifting and resistance training exercises. The best way to lose weight is through cardio exercises. Cardio are among the most efficient fat burning exercises. Weight lifting and resistance training exercises will help you build more muscle tissue instead of fat. The combination of cardio plus weight lifting exercises will generate the best possible outcome at the shortest time possible.

·  Muscles aid the body to burn more calories while at rest. If you can manage to build more muscles you will enjoy faster calorie burning since the process continuous during the period you rest.

·  If you are not a celebrity then you can’t have a celebrity body. This may sound harsh but you should not compare yourself with celebrities. Celebrities have all the money, time and resources to get the body they want and look fit and healthy. Normal people have limited time to exercise and they cannot spend huge amounts of money just to look good. Be realistic on what you want to achieve and appreciate your body and looks.

·  Enjoy the journey. Losing weight is a like a big journey and you need to enjoy every moment. Don’t be miserable because you have a couple or more pounds but enjoy the journey to a healthier you.

·  Personalize your diet. A diet is one of the tools you can utilize to get slimmer. The perfect diet for you is one that fits your lifestyle and caters for your own needs and requirements. A diet that works for a friend will not necessarily work for you and vice versa. Spend some time finding the diet that can work for you and stick to it for a couple of months before deciding to change it. Whatever you do stay on one weight loss plan and don’t mix your strategies.

·  The mirror never lies. Losing weight and psychology are strongly related and various studies have shown that people who have the right psychology are able to lose weight easier. This is where the mirror can play a role. Try to eat in front of a mirror so that you see yourself eating. Looking yourself eating will remind you of your targets and this psychological reaction will make you eat less. Many people have tried this and it works especially when you have no-one else to remind you of your weight loss goals.

·  More stress – more weight gain. Stress is the number one factor for many health problems including weight loss. People get stressed for many reasons and they turn to food (usually fat food and sweets) for comfort. If you can manage to control the stress levels in your life you will be able to improve your quality of life and in turn your weight and looks.

·  Weigh and measure your body once a week. People who are in the process of losing weight are very anxious to get results and they usually weigh and measure their body daily to see if they have improved or not. This is not necessary and can do more harm than good. You only need to weigh once per week and keep the results in your weight loss journal. Once a month monitor your progress and take corrective actions.

·  Understand the basic weight loss principles. If you want to succeed in any project you, need to be educated and informed on how the project works and understand the factors that will lead to successful completion. This is true for a weight loss as well. Learning how to lose weight means you need to understand the basic weight loss principles. For example you need to know that one 1 pound = 3500 calories and that in order to lose weight you need to spend more calories than consumed.

·  Keep a journal. A journal can serve many purposes but the most important is for tracking your progress. Common items to include in a journal are: the foods consumed and their calories, your daily calorie targets, the type and duration of exercises performed and the calories burned. There are many free calorie calculators on-line that can help you organize you journal and even have it all the time with you on your phone  or through the Internet.

·  Be prepared to handle failure. Although there is no reason why you cannot lose weight, you should be prepared to handle failure as well. There is no reason to panic if you are getting weight instead of losing and this is no excuse to stop your efforts. What you should do instead is analyze the reasons that lead to weight gain and take corrective actions. Have in mind that what goes up goes down as well so expect to have anomalies in the process.

·  Enough theory, it’s time to get into practice and start losing weight today. Continue reading our step-by-step guide (7 Steps on how to lose weight) and start losing weight now!

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why should i wait for next year? Now na!

why should i wait for next year? Now na!

bakit ko pa iintayin matapos ang next year para gawin ko ang mga resolutions ko sa buhay ko, tutal every time na gagawa naman ako ng resolutions ko eh madami na ng isa yung natutupad... so this time ang challenge ko para sa sarili ko is gawin lahat ng mga gusto kong matupad...

Ang mind set ko para magawa ko to is di ako magiging masaya on the next year kapag hindi ko ito nagawa.... teka may natupad ba naman sa mga resolutions ko in the past years? OO naman meron

2008 - i wish to my self na sana  mag karoon na ako ng work experince at ayun luckly i was so busy ng whole year ko nun =)

2009 - sabi ko never na akong iinom ng alak, luckly natupad ko sya although di naman din maiiwasan na mapapainom pero hindi na ako yung tipong sumasabay sa mga beterano, so uo to now masama na ang panlasa ko when it comes to alcohol =)

2010 - sabi ko dapat this year mag ka gf na ako ng maayos, what i mean is mag karoon na ng maayos ng relationship although nung una okay naman sya na feel ko naman na masaya, but sad to say di sya nag work at ending break up hehehe

2011 - wala ako wish this year eh di ko alam kung bakit, cguro i should start nalang today kesa nga sabi ko to wait pa next year...ang i hope magawa ko sya...

disiplina at panindigan ang kailangan ko para magawa ko ang mga gusto kong mangayari... do i need inspirations? di na cguro muna hehehe

so major concern ko muna na dapat kong gawin is to change everything to me totally, as in total package!!! Personalities, habits, emotions cguro madali lang madami na akong natutunan this year at ill make sure na hindi na ako magkakamali kung ma encounter ko ulit yung mga errors ko in the past...

so ang una kong gagawin maybe starting tom or on monday kasi its Pacqiuao-Marquez fight tom eh.. ill promise na aayun ko na ang life style ko... healthy life style..start from proper eating.. dati kasi isip ko bsta masaya ako its always dapat na celebrate so this time hindi na dapat...

so what are the things na dapat kong gawin...

1. watch my food -
A. more protein, less carbo and watch calories on food, more on my favorite carrots, wheat bread or plain bread, mahirap tanggalin ang rice cguro hanggat kaya ko less ko sya instead of 2 cups as my average kakayanin ko 1 cup or even 1/2 cup of serving...

B. Throw away Junk foods...haaay eto ang mahirap na challenge para sa akin nasanay pa naman ako madalas before i sleep ngumangata ako... i will try my best

C. Problema ko is medyo mabagal yung metabolism ko, so i advice na medyo magkakain ako ng mga spicy food/ not totally spicy naman ayaw ko nun, mas magiging mabilis ang metabolism ko daw

D. Good News at Bad News -  ang good news still i can eat may favorite chicken lalo na yung pinagusto ko ang breast part, the bad news is i need to remove the skin part na kung saan iyon ang pinaka masarap =(

E. always dapat on my mind na "FIBER is my Bestfriend from now on and Calories is my worst enemies, ang Carbo at Fats tamang friend lang ang status kasi still i need them daw, i need carbs specially kasi need energy ko parin daw but not too much..

F. Like ko ang water pero this time dpat totally ma inlove na ako sknya, no more sofdrinks, may be ice tea or juice but as much as possible water nalang.


G. and lastly cguro iiwasan ko ng manood ng mga cooking shows like quickfire at idol sa kusina lalo na ang show ni tony pet gaba lalo lang kasi akong natatakam hehehe



2.  Exercise

actually tamad ako minsan dito eh pero may nabasa ako na dpat arleat every day i make 10mins of walking so its a simple way na dapat kong i try.

since saturday at sunday naman ako walang pasok so good time for me jogging mode saturday night and sunday morning

At dapat laging positive ako at isipin na "There are no miracles in weight loss"

yung mga next na resolutions ko after christmas nalang cguro ill make sure na lahat ng gusto kong resolutions is magagawa ko tlga... so mag start muna ako sa isa...

have a nice day readers!!!

Go Manny!!!

Final Score na nga ba?

Final score na nga ba? i hope @ the end of this blog malaman mo ang sagot... before that kwento ko nalng muna kung ano yung mga nangyari before.. di na ako sure what exactly date last year, nag kakilala kami month of septemeber 2010, nung una di ko sya masyado pinapansin kasi medyo nahihiya ako hanggang sa lahat ng mga kasama at kilala ko kinakausap na nya so medyo nakipag kwentuhan na din ako nakipag biruan hanggan sa naging kakulitan, ang saya nung mga araw na yun kasi may bago akong kakilala na alam kong makakabiruan ko, but just to be honest no one will have an idea na simula lang pala iyon ng mga darating ng mga magiging kaganapan sa aming buhay, nag simula sa konting asaran at kulitan sa text, to be honest mas naging close pa kami dun sa isa kong friend na lgusto kong ligawan kaso ayaw sa akin kasi complicated din, to be honest kagagaling ko lang din nun sa isang malabong break up with my ex gf hazel mahirap kalimutan yung sa amin din ni hazel kasi nag break kami nun di dahil sa may di magandang nangyari kung di conplict on her parents, but nito lang i know kung ano tlga ang nang yari but di ko na i dedetalye di naman dun ang concern as of now sa past na din yun,so back to may new friend, by the way my new friend name kath, to be honest madali akong na inlove saknya kasi sobrang bait at gaan ng loob namin sa isat isa,yung mga time naman na yun itong friend  ko medyo nagkakaproblema sila ng bf nya, yes! may bf sya take note. during that time in love na ako sakanya pero pinipigilan ko ang sarilo ko kasi may bf nga sya, but the story is just getting started lang pala, one time nag gm sya sa GM sya sa text, the on of her GM's sabi nya in the middle of her text na "mahal ko na sya, ako din kaya mahal nya?" so na confused ako kung sino kasi isip ko hala break na ata sila ng bf nya kaya ok lang sabihin nya yun, so nag reply ako ang sabi ko "sino"... to be honest i swear im saying the truth, i dont have any idea sa irereply nya, i was so shock at napasigaw ako when i read her reply...she said "ikaw! may angal?! ako mahal mo din ba ako?" di ko lubos maintindihan kung anong saya ko dahil mahal na din pala nya ako, then natuwa ako syempre but that time di ko na naisip kung ano yung mga dpat na limitations sa sobrang tuwa ko, i replied to her "oo mahal kita may angal ka din?" so dun nag start.. but di naging maayos at di kagandahan yung mga sumunod kasi conflict nga dahil may bf sya, so tuloy lang kami kung ano kami before medyo nagkaroon ng konting hiyaan kasi nag kaaminan kami but still friends only ang status namin, lumipas ang mga araw buwan at linggo tuloy lang ang buhay, hanggang sa napansin na ng mga kaibigan namin yung pagiging sweet namin sa isat isa until one thime nag punta kami sa tiangge sa marikina river park at di namin namalayan na magkaholding hands na kami at nakita na yung ng mga kaibigan namin so dun na sila nag simulang magtanong tanong ilang araw pa ang lumi[as di ko na maalala kung anong nangyari but dec 14 , 2011 kath gave me a kiss nung pauwi ako sa cheek, sobrang saya ko that night bsta ang naaalala ko is were both in love na to each other na, 4 days later dec 18, 2010 nag set kami ng xmas party on reyes barbeque in riverbanks masaya kami nun, hanggang sa nag kayayaan kami mag punta ulit sa tiangge, ito yung date na di ko malilimutan sa aming dalawa, after window shopping we deceide na umupo muna on river side together with 2 other friends although medyo naka distansya kaming dalawa, before we eat on that day sa SM Marikina ang meeting place namin at napag kasunduan naming dalawa na dapat walang late ang ma late may parusa na 1 kiss per minute, sorry to say almost 30 minutes syang late hehehe,,ayun nung naka upo na kami medyo distansya sa 2ng kaibigan hihingin ko na sknya yung kiss na 30 hehehe mxdong madami yun sa sinabi ko sknya na cge isang kiss nlang pero sa lips, nagulat sya to be honest pero malakas pakiramdam ko na papayag sya kasi in love nga kami with each other, by the way nung mga panahon na yan is break na sila ng bf nya di ko na msyado i dedeltalye pa, so ayun ang sya pumayag sya sa lips ako mag kiss and that time napatunayan ko sa sarili ko na mahal nga nya ako, naka kiss ako sakanya ng hindi ako nanligaw its just true love all i can say yun ang tinatawag na nadevelop, actually medyo nabitin ako so i kiss her twice...that day was so memorable para sakin,im in love!!!! haayyy but to be honest di naging kami that day kasi yung mga panahon na nga iyon ay kakabreak lang nya sa bf nya at di rin sya pa satisfied na hiwalay na nga sila tlga..magulo ba? to be honest oo, to be honest alam mo nagkabalikan pa sila ng bf nya kahit ganun na ang status namin =( after new year medyo konting nag kakailangan na dahil sa nangyari, inlove ka na pero bat ganun diba. so hinayaan ko lang, but di ko matiis yung nararamdaman ko lalo na nung nakita ko na nakipagbalikan nga sya sa bf nya pero alam kong di na sya masaya dahil madalas syang pinapaiyak naman nito so lumakas ang loob ko na ipaglaban kung ano yung nararamdaman ko sknya until nakipag break na ulit na sknya yung bf nya, isa lang ang sinabi ko sakanya nun, i said i never let that kunin ka pa nya sa akin, umiiyak sya nun at she said to me na "ikaw ng bahala sa akin"...so ginawa ko ang lahat, i find a perfect time place para sa aming dalawa, para maibalik kung ano kami before then nangyari nga Feb 13 dispiras ng Valentines day somewhere in QC yes were finally M.U but still di parin kasi di pa sya ready although parang kami na rin, feb 27 @ MOA she promise to me na ako lang simula that day ang mamahalin nya, naibalik ko na nga kung ano kami dati at mas okay pa kami kesa sa dati, level up kumbaga, so totoolang halos araw araw na kaming mag kasama 2days lang yung pinaka matagal na di kami mag kita, napakasaya ko sa totoo lang with her sa bahay pakilala ko sya as my gf, she gave me a gift, yung picture namin dalawa na ginawang puzzle gift nya sa akin yun, ayun nakadikit sa room ko sya, mga sumunod na buwan masaya although may mga time din syempre na nagkakatampuhan madalas nya kasi ako awayin hehehe but okay lang pero mdaming din time na parang ayaw na nya at gusto nya na din akong iwan, but nareresolve naman namin, may 2010 summer ang hindi ko malilimutan sa lahat sa buong buhay ko madaming magagandang nangyari At masasabi ko na na mas naging matibay kami kahit napapadalas na yung away namin at dumadating tlga sa time na maghihiwalay na kami...kung iisipin ko nakapaka dami namin na magagandang memories,madami pa sana akong gustong isulat sa blog na ito kaso madami tlga, so cguro by this time i have to answer na kung ano ang final score, kung mababasa mo pala yung iba kong blog andun yung ibang details on this story kasi every month nag susulat kasi ako..so whats the final score...sad to say... sad story ang ending, di ko na din sasabihin muna cguro yung mga nangyari to be both unfair sa aming dalawa, so ayun she decide na i give up na yung relationship namin =( ilang araw din akong di nakatulog dahil sa kakaiyak ko, sabi ko madami ng time din na maghihiwalay kami pero nagagawan ko ng paraan pero this time di na ako nakiusap saknya dahil ramdam na ramdam ko na gusto na din tlga nya lumayo..sobrang sakit kung malalaman mo kung ano yung dahilan ng break up namin =( di ko alam bakit nagkaganun, sana masabi ko yung tunay or complentong detalye para malaman ko din kung sino nga ba ang mali sa amin bakit kami umabot ng ganito ng ganun nlang  =(... anyway eto naman tlga din yung gusto kong sabihin... so break na nga kami, di ko na din kasing magawang ipaglaban ko pa yung pagmamahal ko sknya dahil this time nararamdaman ko na ayaw na tlga din cguro nya...sayang lang tlga yung mga nabuong magagandang memories namin, kung alam mo lang tlga yung mga nangyari sa amin masasabi mo tlgang sayang at di maganda ang nangyari sa amin, but yun ang pinagkaloob ng diyos sa amin eh kahit masakit dapat tanggapin nlang cguro kahit masakit, parang bday lang din sana ito na lumilipas din, cguro this time magpapahinga na muna ako, di ko rin alam ano bang dapat kong gawin..pero tuloy lang cguro ang buhay madami pang umaasa sa akin maikli lang buhay so dapat be positive lagi, maging busy nalang muna cguro ako sa ibang bagay na, cguro may isa nalang tlga ako tanong na sana may makasagot...anong bang mali sa akin?bakit lagi ako mdalas iwanan? thanks for the readers, kung meron man, well hindi naman ako galit sknya, kung tlgang mahal ko sya papalayain ko sya sa gusto nya yung ang tunay na love sabi ko naman saknya i rather to sacrifice my personal feelings bsta in the end were still good friends sana, ganun naman yung mga pangako namin sa isat isa dati pa...haaay bsta ayun na muna ang importante if mamatay ako may nakaka alam ng love story ng buhay ko masayang magulo ngunit mapait...thanks readers! sensya na wala ako sa mood mag sulat kaya medyo maikli :p godbless!

How's my day?

How's my day? Hmmmmm di ko lam pano ko i dedescribe i rate ko nlang ng from 1 to 10 cguro 2 as of 8:15 pm... di ako nakatulog to be honest...ang sama na naging habits ko everytime na may mga iniisip ako hindi na ako nakakatulog daig ko pa yung di pinapatulog ng kunsenysa..wala naman ako ginawa para mangyari yun...di lang ako cguro na sanay if one of the most important person in my life eh alam nyo na as usual...di ko lam hanggang kelan ganito..minsan naiisip gusto ko ng sumuko...pero iniisip ko palang tumutulo na ang luha ko...no one knows na ganito ako ka soft akala kasi ng madami ni hindi ko makuhang ganito dahil sa kalog kong image. back to how my start my day today October17, 2011 nahirapan nga makatulog ayun tinanghali ng gising, pag alis ng bahay at pasakay na ng jeep biglang napatigil at naiwan ko ang cp ko bahay so bumalik pa ako to get, pag balik naman sa sakayan nahirapan naman sumakay haist kainis simula ng araw ko monday pa naman, sobrang stress ang araw ko na ito kaya habang nasa daan ako papasok iniisip ko na kailangan di ko dlain sa duty ang pag ka stress ko...so almost late na ako 6 mins before 9am na ako naka pag in...di na din ako nasali sa prayer at sa pag kanta according sa mga Mam at Sir ko dahil late na nga ako :( pag dating sa duty ayun dun ko ibinuhos ang lahat ng stress ko anything na pedeng gawin agad ginawa ko na...nag paka busy ako para lang makalimot ng 9hours kahit papano..pero ano man gawin ko di mawala sa isip ko...To my dear lord ano po ba tlaga ang kasalanan ko bakit ganito nangyayari sa akin?wag mo nalng po sana ako patikimin ng saya kung sobrang sakit naman ang mararamdaman ko...tama ng a cguro na di mo ibibigay sa tao kung ano yung gusto nila...ano bang dapat kong gawin? Should i turn to be an evil..kasi kung kelan ako nagiging matino saka ako nagiging ganito haist...ikaw lang nakakaalam ano tlga ang plano mo sa akin...pero sana yung laging ipinagdadasal ko ang gawin mo po sa amin...Today is one of the most special day na iniitay ko kasi ganito naman ang nangyayari...anyway salamat pa din po...i still have 3 1/2 hours to wait before this day will put on the books... =(

Dear Nathan October 10,2011

Dear Blog October 8, 2011

Dear Blog,

Wala ako ibang makausap eh, im feel guilty...pero dpat nga ba? alam ko mali ako, but ayoko naman din mag sinungalin lalo na kung di dapat tlga dahil yung katotohanan ang dpat..pero may mga sitwasyon na dapat kailangan mag sinungalin dahil yun daw ang mas makakabuti. I feel bad kasi parang i commit again another mistake nanaman.Ngayon ko nalng napag isip isip na alam ba nila ang real story bat ako ganito, sabagay for the rest of my life isang tao lang tlga nakakita how serious i am, kung gaano ako kdrama at kaseryoso sa buhay..Kung sa personalities ko sa ibang tao ay im a funny sino nga ba ang seseryoso sa ka tulad ko... lahat naman meron tayong ayaw na karakter ng isng tao pero gaya ng sabi ko tao lang naman eh lahat may pintas..wlang ginagawa ang diyos na perpekto yung tipong straight to heaven ang kaligayahan...walang lalabas sa bibig ng isang tao kung walang dapat itanong o sabihin o ipahiwatig...ano ba tong sinasabi ko? tila na ako baliw...May nagsabi sa akin nun nitong nakaraang 3 buwan palang nakakalipas na "gusto mo kasi sayo lahat eh" nakakainsulto sa totoo lang kahit pabiro sinabi nung kaibigan ko na yun gusto kong manakit kaso nasa importante kaming okasyon nun eh....nakakainis gusto kong ipag laban yung side ko pero para san naman haaay.........parang tama nga yung naka post ng MMDA "NAKAKAMATAY" pero ilang beses na akong nasaktan kaya ganito ako katapang..teka ano difference ng matapang sa manhid? manhid pala ako di matapang. Mali ata yung mga natutunan ko pero di ko kailangan manisi dahil di ako matututo kung di ko sinubukan...Mas masakit pala yung ganito. Isipin ko nlang na di lang nila alam ang tunay na kwento kaya normal lang na ganun...kahit ilang beses pa akong masaktan ulit wapakels ako mapatunayan ko lang kung sino tlga ako... malalim na ang gabi.. when i read all the thing s na pinag sasabi ko dito before i post sa totoo lang gumaan kahit papano narararamdaman ko kasi natawa ako dhil di ko maintindihan yung ibng part na sinabi ko...blog hanggang sa susunod nlang kapag wla akong makausap..sana hindi ka nagtatampo sakin kasi madalas binibisita lang kita kapag mabigat ang nararamdaman ko..ingat ka blog happy birthday tsup! tsup!

Nagmamahal,

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Now I believe in Ghost!!!

I’m just an ordinary person, may simpleng paniniwalang “To see is to believe”... hindi ako basta naniniwala specially sa mga basta bastang bagay lalo na kung walang patunay na scientific evidence. Una sa lahat kung maniniwala ako basta basta sino ba tinakot ko? Eh di ang sarili ko hehehe... Now the question bakit ganun ang title ng blog ko? Yes unfortunately i am now believe in ghost... hindi ko na idedetalye where and when i exact ako nakakita... Nung  nakita as in natakot talaga ako, nakakatakot na makakita ng isang babaeng naka stripe na polo shirt na white and yellow green haist =( di ko nakita ang mukha nya nun dahil dumaan sya sa side ko, as in malapit na malapit lang sya ng nakita ko, haaaay simula ng nakita ko yun so natakot na talaga ako as in, may kinausap akong expert on that  advice nya sa akin as long as wala naman ginagawa mas maganda din daw minsan na kesa matakot ako eh kausapin ko daw like for example if magkaroon daw ulit ng time na magpakita sa akin is sabihin ko lang daw “kamusta kaibigan, dumaan ka nanaman” kesa daw matakot ako, yah it was a good advice kesa matakot ako... I just can’t believe na mababasag yung paniniwala ko na never ako maniniwala sa ghost dhil ako mismo   before di ako nakakakita at walang true evidence on ther people na nakakita sila, ako i don’t have the evidence but i know na totoo ito sa nakita ko... Thanks for reading!!!

The Wedding!!!

Good day readers! (kung meron)  im here again again, for what? Para sa kadramhan nanaman? Ahhhmmm maybe hehehe .. I just want to share my experience, my observations, the moments and everything regarding on my friend’s Wedding Zara and Christian last night... Maganda naman ang kinalabasan ng kanilang wedding although still di mo sya masasabi as perfect wedding, normal naman daw yung according Christian’s mom... Kahit hindi ako yung ikakasal that day i feel the pressure for Zara and Christian. Pressure of what? I don’t know din eh or kinakabahan lang cguro din... Then ayun ilang minutes before the wedding lumalabas na ng konti yung mga nagiging problems... Syempre usually Filipino tayo eh is automatic di maalis yung malate... But siguro ang maipagmamalaki ko sa sarili ko is almost wala sa sarili ko o bukabularyo ko ang pagiging late... So bakit ko to sinasabi? It’s because i missed the important part of my friend’s wedding, mas maaga pa ako sa groom dumating sa venue wherein dun kami mang gagaling almost 9am nandun na ako at 2:30pm pa ang kasal... so what happen? Well hindi lang naman ako nakapag marcha hahaha... bakit? It’s because natagalan kaming balikan ng sundo naming papuntang church.. Sad to say im the bestman sa wedding... I have 2 chances para hindi nangyari ang bagay nay un. Kasabay dapat ako ng Groom sa car nila medyo masikip lang sa car kaya i decided nlang muna to stay on venue dahil babalik naman yun car nila to pick up the remaining guest... Kaso natagalan bumalik... 2^nd chance ko naman is dun sa car ng bride maluwag naman kaso may kasama naman  pa akong isang abay at ayaw naman na iwan ko sila kaya di na ako naka sakay.. Ayun ng dumating na yung iniitay namin finally when we arrive at the church nag sisimula na sila... Medyo agaw eksena pa ako kasi ma nonotice ng tao na may uupo sa harap (as in sa harap, bestman eh hehehe) but okay na din atleast nakarating pa din... So medyo disappointed ako on that at isa pa during that day may problema akong dinadala ilang na sa puso ko huhuhu =(

Pero andun na yun so wala na tayong magagawa... Although nung nasa church na ako una kong idinasal kay god na sana ibalik nya ang oras kahit 30mins lang para hindi nangyari yun... So masasabi nlang talagang destiny yun kaya yun nangyari... As a result of wedding medyo hindi maganda ng konti regarding sa policy ng church nakaka disappoint lalo na sa newlyweds... Sa pag inquire palang ng ikakasal before up to that point sakit daw ulo... Di ko nlang idededetalye ang mga bagay nay un... So kahit disappointed ako ng konti eh bumawi nalang ako sa venue... Uunahan na kitang bumabasa ng blog ko hindi ako sa pagkain bumawi hahahaha although gustong gusto kong kumain ng madami dahil ang sarap ng food. Pag hain pa nga lang plate sabi Agad ni Maan na extra rice please hehehe... Kaso di din kasi kami naka kain ng gusting kain kasi medyo abala kami ng maid of honor sa pag assist...

Then lastly the Program, to be honest i don’t have any idea what going to happen next ang alam ko lang is mag memessage ako sa newlyweds... Then until nag karoon ng mini parlor games... So ako lang naman ang bida dun hahaha Trip to Jerusalem with magic talong hahaha... Although nakularot ang talong ko sa kaka agaw ng mga gustong humawak hahaha kaya they decided to unahan nalng to sit on my lap then the last single lady na di makaka upo ang syang winner hahaha. Before that so SCRIPTED na hahaha SET UP nanamin na ako ang makakakuha dapat ng garter ng Bride... Hahaha So lam nyo na siguro what happen next  at alam nyo na kung sino kaming sumunod na bida dun hahaha...Tignan nyo nalang sa available pics as of now... So on that medyo nakalimutan ko yung disaaponted ko earilier before the wedding...Parang mini reunion na din naming yun although iilan lang din kami( Me, Maan, Zara, Christian, Elino at Regine(elino’s jowa))... According sa mga pamahiin na atmost of the guest na nagsabi na kami na daw yung susunod na ikakasal well masarap makarinig ng mga ganung bagay although naisip ko agad tumantanda na ako, kami at nandito na yung iba kong mga kasama on this stage of my life.. Sabin nga ng Paris a kasal this is parang pagkamatay o paglisan, sa pamilya, pagiging binata/dalaga sa pagiging bata... Pero para sa akin hindi pa ako handa sa gantong bagay wala pa akong karapatan sa ganitong sitwasyon sa buhay ko at napakadami kong responsibilidad sa madaming tao... Bagamat medyo naiinggit ako kasi sila atleast they can now live the way they want and do whatever they want... Ako naman din gusto kong dumating ako sa stage na ganyan but siguro sobrang Malabo pa... Una sa lahat meron ba akong pakakasalan? Yah may gusto akong pakasalan but i can’t caller her as my own, Madami kaming hindi pag kakaunawaan madalas i really don’t know bat ganun kami... Sabi ko na nga ba in the end of this mag ddrama pa din ako hahaha... So ganun ang mga nangyari sa wedding, In the end Sobrang Antok, lowbatt na kaming lahat, sakit ng katawan at ulo, at higit sa lahat Nakaramdam na ng gutom ulit... Gusto kumain ng handa sa kasal ulit na Lechon, Veggies hahaha, Carbonara, Beef, Breaded Porkchop with white sauce hahaha...

Then syempre kahit pagod makakalimutan bang mag facebook muna hahaha... Then after that before go to sleep mag pray and say thank you for the good day na binigay kana zara and Christian but also sa aming lahat... Medyo na nag mumuni muni ng konti sa mga nangyari kanina... But in the end of this day balik ako sa problema. Nakakasawa ng maging malungkot sana maiba naman... Di lang talaga alam ng iba kung anong pinagdadaaan ng isang masaying tao na katulad ko... haaay haba ng drama ko... Next bolg na nga lang... Thank for reading =)

Our Score in the past 7months...

Its exactly 1 months since i post my last blog..sabi ko sana may magtiyagang magbasa ng kadramhan ko este ng blog ko.. Anyway our real score in the past 7 months is ano na nga ba? Okay ba kami or hindi.. So far its a very good between me and my bheb..kung bibigyan ko nga ng grade eh i give a solid A++ or 1.25.. Were not perpect when it comes to this maraming bagay kami na ngaun lang namin na encounter dhil medyo magkaiba kami ng age although were compatible with each other.. sa tawanan biruan at lambingan.. Ah hindi nawawala yung konting drama(tampuhan) so ano ngaun ang problema ko eh ok naman pala kami at nag susulat nnman ako ng kung ano ano sa blog..madami lang akong katanungan sa sarili ko dhil sa totoo lang ay ngayon ko lang na naramdaman yung ganitong pkiramdam na sya na ang dahilan kung bakit ako nabubuhay,nabuhay naman ako dati ng wala sya pero ngaun iniisip ko palang kung mawala sya ay mabubuhay pa ba ako? My answer is "NO" ewan ko why hindi sapat ang reason na dahil mahal ko sya kaya di ko kayang mabuhayng wala sya..Ano man ang dahilan ko bakit ako nag kakaganito eh sana wag dumating ang time na kinakatakot ko..Siguro madalas lang pumasok sa isip ko na na wala akong confidence sa sarili ko at manalig lang na mahal naman nya ako..Lumabas pa din ang mga negative na ugali ko hehehe such as nagiging seloso nnman ako..san nga ba may mali? Ako na sobrang seloso? sa taong minahal ko na ubod ng ganda kung kayat ang dami kong kaagaw? o may iba pang dahilan? Ano man ang dahilan kung bakit minsan ay mayroon kming konting tampuhan ang masasabi ko lang is isinasaisip ko nalang na pagsubok sa amin ang lahat ngyayari sa amin..Mahirap humanap ng taong gusto na lahay ng katangian na hinahanap mo sa isang tao dhil sabi nga ni god no one is perpect..Kaya ako starting this day ay may natutunan akong aral sa buhay..Sna everyone ay ma realize na may point ako.. Moral lesson Madaling humanap ng taong mamahalin pero mahirap humanap ng taong mag mamahal sayo ng higit pa sa buhay nya..Kaya kung ikaw na makahanap ng tunay na nag mamahal sayo ingatan mong wag syang mwala sayo pero wag kang ggwa ng dahilan na ikakagalit nya sa kadahilan mo lang na ayaw mo kasi syang mwala kaya mo yun nagawa.. Bheb ko aalagaan kita pangako ko sayo yan..

2nd quarter...

Kamusta naman? sana may bumasa ng kadramahan ko nanaman hehehe walang magawa sa facebook eh.. kaya mag daadrama nalang ako..sabi ko nung january "stress was my bestfriend" mali pala ako.. may time din pala na magiging masaya ako..Masaya pa din ako dahil sa bheb ko =D matatapos na ang bheb ko sa kanyang studies haaay im very proud sakanya... Pero dapat ba ako malungkot at di na sya papasok? Ofcourse no dapat...di naman kami mag hihiwalay eh nangako kami sa isat isa na di mag iiwanan... at sinabi nya sa akin na hintayin naman dw nya yung turn ko sa december..i dont know anong ibig nyang sabihin dun but im so happy when she say it to me.. Usapan namin kanina sa txt kung minsan gusto ko na ba daw magalit sakanya minsan..sabi ko oo gusto ng magalit pero di ko alam anong pumipigil sa akin para di magalit sakanya..basta ang alam kong sagot mahal na mahal ko ang bheb ko kaya di ko makuhang magalit sakanya... habang tumatagal kaming magkasama nakikilala nanamin ng husto ang isat isa...Bheb salamat sa lahat ng ginawa mo sa akin at dun sa gift mo sakin...sana maging maganda ang plano ni god sa ating dalawa..I love you!!!

               

So yummy! 

Pic number 1,3 and 4 : Home made Chicken noodle soup

Egg Noodles

Fried Garlic(toppings)

Onion leaves(toppings)

Hard boiled eggs

Salt

Pepper

Fish Sauce

Chicken Stock

Pic number 2: Goto and Tokwat baboy

Goto: 

Courtesy Raquels Gotohan at Concepcion Uno Marikina near Luyong Restaurant

Tokwat baboy: 

Fried Tofu

Onion Slice

Pig meat with some skin

Soysauce

Vinegar

Salt

Sugar

Parehas silang masarap na pampainit.. But im a rice lover Goto pa din ang favorite ko hehehe...Chowtime!